last week i had trouble sleeping. i would scrape consciousness several times throughout the night, each time waking with the thought, "i wonder what time it is?" it was almost like i was waking up just to see how long i'd been sleeping.
usually the red digital numbers were saying "3:32" or "5:12" or something equally terrible. i'd roll back over and have no trouble getting back to sleep, but still... the interruption made me very groggy. it was impossible to get through the workday without yawning.
so friday night i was excited to to go bed and catch up. i wanted to sleep late on saturday morning. i wasn't completely sure i could do it on my own, though, so i drugged myself.
i have a bottle of valium in my medicine chest. i don't know why i have it... the prescription is in my name, but it's past it's expiration date by a year or so. i took one of those little yellow pills saturday night... i slept for 11 hours. it was delicious. i woke up saturday morning feeling wonderful.
but i didn't trust my body to do it again on its own, so last night at bedtime i cut one of the pills and half. i slept for 8 hours straight.
i'm hoping this experiment has forced my brain into remembering how wonderful it is to sleep through the night. i'm not going to take a pill tonight.
Posted by xta at August 1, 2004 10:42 AM | TrackBack