my brother, rob, left this morning. he's gone. i cried.
lulu & roxi stuck around for a few more hours, waiting for lulu's mom to drive down from richmond, pick them up, and drive them to the grandparents' house.
so now they're gone, too. and i cried.
but i'm not sobbing the way i do when i leave them all at once. at the end of a visit to the tusselwuppers' homestead in colorado i'm a complete wreck. i cry for days and days.
not so this time. maybe it's the gradualness of their departure. one leaves, then another. and in fact, lulu & roxi are still in town (the grandparents live here in durham) and there's a chance i might see them again... so knowing they aren't FULLY gone helps, too, i think.
and maybe having had them visit ME in durham eases the pain as well -- when i leave colorado, i'm also leaving a wonderful vacation... the mountains, the golf, the lazing about. when i leave their house there's a difficult re-entry into my regular life.
which raises an interesting question: is it better to leave, or to be left? i, personally, seem to better adapt to being left.
so anyway... i'm sad, but i'm not devasatated like i usually am.
still, if i could make a wish and blow out some candles, i'd wish that we could all live closer to each other so that we could completely eliminate "goodbye" from our vocabularies.
Posted by xta at July 8, 2005 03:23 PM | TrackBackI'd make that same wish too! Living in Israel is great except it's too damn far away from family and friends. Visits are not enough.
I moved here in October of 2004 and went back to the US for my first visit in May of 2005. When I left in Oct, there were no tears, I was excited to go. In May, I looked like a FREAK at the ticket counter after telling my mother goodbye - the heaving, ugly crying. The second time I knew what the goodbye really meant.
Posted by: John Boy at July 9, 2005 03:26 AMMe, too. I like being able to say "see ya!" to local friends because it's likely to come true very soon.
Posted by: Phil at July 10, 2005 01:10 AMI cried too. But OH what a delicious time we had ... and not just because of all the Loco Pops (mmmmmm).
Christa, Christa, World's Coolest Sista!
Posted by: Lulu at July 11, 2005 12:04 PM