quandry

i recently received a contribution from a divaville listener. it's the first one i'd ever gotten, despite the fact that there's been a paypal 'donate' button right on the website for over a year now.

it's no big deal; i was never hurt or crushed or pissed that i hadn't goten any contributions. i only put that button on the site on a whim, thinking that perhaps i could regain some of the investment i've put into the show. (in the 4+ years i've been doing it, i've probably spent over $1000 on divaville music.)

so, i got this donation recently and it was kind of large. uncomfortably large. i mean, i was thinking i might get donations in the $5 - $10 range. maybe a $15 donation with a note saying, "go buy yourself a new CD for the show." but this contribution was many times larger than what i'd ever expected. it freaked me out a little, and i asked people what i should do... keep it or send it back.

i only considered returning the check because i felt it was inappropriately large. but when the donor called me during last week's show and i told him that i was considering sending it back, he seemed a little freaked out. he admitted that he'd listened to divaville for years, had never done anything to support any of the public radio stations he listened to, and felt like he was finally making good.

so after some hand-wringing i finally decided to accept the money. and now that i've come to peace with that decision i've been browsing some music sites looking for great stuff to add to the divaville collection. i feel a little like a kid in a candy store right now. i just hope it doesn't rot my teeth.